2005-11-06 [death how i long to embrace you]: lol

2005-11-07 [Raikcoes]: *jumps up in the rafters* me still living....unfortunately

2005-11-07 [death how i long to embrace you]: dont try it agian death will come for you when the time is right

2005-11-08 [Raikcoes]: i know, but everything has been so stressful...my parents are kicking me out, i cant find a job, cant pass a piss test....finally found a place to live

2005-11-08 [death how i long to embrace you]: that sucks *hugs* me sorry

2005-11-09 [sammy01988]: that must suck pardin my language

2005-11-09 [death how i long to embrace you]: umm what laungue?

2005-11-10 [Raikcoes]: thanks *hugs bothof you* no need fopr the pardon, i bet my 0mouth is worse than...well  its worse

2005-11-11 [death how i long to embrace you]: lol yes yes

2005-11-11 [sammy01988]: dose it really matter lol

2005-11-13 [Raikcoes]: not really

2005-11-14 [death how i long to embrace you]: yea so ha

2005-11-14 [sammy01988]: lol

2005-11-14 [WeirdMindOfFesh]: ok... so sup ppl?

2005-11-14 [sammy01988]: nm just bsing lol

2005-11-14 [WeirdMindOfFesh]: i see

2005-11-15 [death how i long to embrace you]: do you now?

2005-11-15 [WeirdMindOfFesh]: i think...then again maybe not

2005-11-15 [death how i long to embrace you]: okies

2005-11-16 [Raikcoes]: *wonders through the rafters*

2005-11-17 [sammy01988]: thinking in the dark

2005-11-18 [Raikcoes]: O.o eh? *continues through the rafters*

2005-11-18 [death how i long to embrace you]: *kisses mother* yay

2005-11-19 [sammy01988]: lol

2005-11-24 [Raikcoes]: *kisses back* i am finally out of the grasp of my parents !!! YAY *hugs everyone* a b-day present to myself!!!

2005-11-24 [death how i long to embrace you]: YAY kisses*bear hug* how did you manage that

2005-11-26 [Raikcoes]: i moved out on the day that i turned 18! lol *kisses back* it was fun. i didnt go to skool that day either!!!

2005-11-27 [sammy01988]: oh ya well i just pissed my mom off becaus i went and had my brother taken as my gardian lol if that matters lol

2005-11-29 [death how i long to embrace you]: fun fun

2005-11-30 [Raikcoes]: sounds like most ppls parents are having problems with their children. right now one of me friends ran away from home and she is wit me! lol

2005-12-01 [death how i long to embrace you]: nice can i come live with you lol ill live in the closet

2005-12-01 [sammy01988]: lol i live in the bacement lol whats worse

2005-12-01 [death how i long to embrace you]: no i dont think it would be

2005-12-02 [sammy01988]: i was ust asking

2005-12-02 [sammy01988]: i was just asking

2005-12-03 [Raikcoes]: *looks at [death how i long to embrace you]* shur, but you dont have to live in the closet..........i wont make you live where i wont live! lol 

2005-12-04 [sammy01988]: your not the only one lol

2005-12-06 [Raikcoes]: *smiles* lol

2005-12-09 [sammy01988]: ok

2005-12-09 [Raikcoes]: how is thee today?

2005-12-09 [sammy01988]: not to bad you self

2005-12-10 [Raikcoes]: im doing great...even though in depression i can actually smile and laugh w/o so much pain

2005-12-11 [sammy01988]: oh ya y not

2005-12-16 [Raikcoes]: i am comming out of it again! lol those are really the first signs i put out when i am feeling not so depressed

2005-12-16 [sammy01988]: oh ya well thats good

2005-12-21 [death how i long to embrace you]: yay can i help you in some way?

2005-12-21 [sammy01988]: not tat i know of

2005-12-22 [death how i long to embrace you]: ummm how bout you mother can i help you with your depression

2005-12-24 [sammy01988]: nope i done that on my one i moved out and took leagil gardin ship frome her an gave it to my brother

2005-12-29 [Raikcoes]: dunno death, i am moving to try and escape from the ppl that cause the majority of it. my mom isnt that happy either. she bitched me out.

2005-12-30 [death how i long to embrace you]: damn that sucks

2005-12-30 [Raikcoes]: yeah, she is flying high on oxycodene so she can care less about me. i asked her what she wanted me to be in life and she answered "corner whore"

2005-12-30 [death how i long to embrace you]: damn that like is not cool at all

2006-01-03 [Raikcoes]: i know right. now she wishes she didnt say that cuz now she realizes that it is me that is taking care of her while my brothers stand by and laugh at me. she asked y i was still helping her after she said that and i told her its because she is my mom, i may not love you but i still care! she cried!

2006-01-03 [death how i long to embrace you]: yea i understand

2006-01-05 [Raikcoes]: *huggles* at least someone does!

2006-01-06 [death how i long to embrace you]: yea and me of all people to

2006-01-07 [Raikcoes]: *smiles and huggles*

2006-01-07 [death how i long to embrace you]: *hugs back*

2006-01-09 [sammy01988]: so how is every one now

2006-01-09 [death how i long to embrace you]: ok i guess i lost my girlfriend cause me and my dad had a big fight and he kicked me out had to go back and live with my mom

2006-01-09 [Raikcoes]: awe *huggles death* im sorry

2006-01-10 [death how i long to embrace you]: it is ok she took it ok i guess she went yelling out side and puntched a tree but we are still talking on the phone

2006-01-10 [Raikcoes]: at least your still talking!

2006-01-10 [death how i long to embrace you]: yea and might be able to go visit her but yea

2006-01-12 [Raikcoes]: thats good *huggles* see everything works out!

2006-01-12 [sammy01988]: thats good

2006-01-12 [death how i long to embrace you]: maybe maybe not

2006-01-13 [sammy01988]: oh ok

2006-01-24 [Raikcoes]: lol

2006-01-24 [death how i long to embrace you]: yes yes i know i am wierd

2006-01-24 [Raikcoes]: arent we all in our own lil way?

2006-01-24 [RainCloud]: "sane ppl" are just crazy ppl trying to deceive themselves

2006-01-25 [death how i long to embrace you]: ummmm yes yes

2006-01-26 [Raikcoes]: definately! lol

2006-01-26 [death how i long to embrace you]: yes the army mariens and national guard has come a knocking

2006-02-02 [Raikcoes]: cool

2006-02-02 [death how i long to embrace you]: no not really but they are going to give me free things so i am going to humor them

2006-02-02 [Raikcoes]: that works!

2006-02-02 [death how i long to embrace you]: yes that it does so what have you been up to my dear

2006-02-02 [Raikcoes]: trying to pull my hair out

2006-02-02 [death how i long to embrace you]: ummm ok why

2006-02-02 [Raikcoes]: frustrated!

2006-02-03 [death how i long to embrace you]: why what wrong?

2006-02-03 [RainCloud]: pull out small, unnoticieable clumps. or pull it out systematically. it looks better. just thought i'd add that :)

2006-02-03 [death how i long to embrace you]: iay iay iay wierd people indeed

2006-02-05 [Raikcoes]: my parents are argui9ng non stop. they even do it in their sleep!!!!

2006-02-05 [death how i long to embrace you]: *hugs* i sorry

2006-02-07 [GABA~blah~GABA]: ... whats going on?

2006-02-07 [sammy01988]: nm just hanging out

2006-02-08 [Raikcoes]: *hugs back*

2006-02-09 [WeirdMindOfFesh]: is it wrong to sit and see how may times you can cut yourself before youpass out?

2006-02-09 [death how i long to embrace you]: in a way some would say yes but for some depends if that is just the only reason?

2006-02-09 [Raikcoes]: that is true. it all depends on the reasoning behind it!

2006-02-09 [GABA~blah~GABA]: [WeirdMindOfFesh]u know what. all ur saying that for is so someone will give u attention so knock it off

2006-02-09 [Raikcoes]: be nice please. it was a simple question! i dont mean to snap.....

2006-02-09 [GABA~blah~GABA]: how can u snap over online?

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: never mind!

2006-02-10 [RainCloud]: believe me, it happens all the time!

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: same here.

2006-02-10 [RainCloud]: ppl always thinking i'm snapping at them but i'm not. i'm not a snappy person, i just come across that way online for some reason...

2006-02-10 [GABA~blah~GABA]: hmmm, interesting

2006-02-10 [RainCloud]: yep :) i'm a very interesting person once u get to kno me. ...sry, had to say something

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: *nods*

2006-02-10 [RainCloud]: "wise men speak b/c they have something to say; fools speak b/c they have to say something." good quote. i fall into both categories

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: same here, thats cool!

2006-02-10 [RainCloud]: yay!

2006-02-10 [GABA~blah~GABA]: how can u be wise and a fool?

2006-02-10 [RainCloud]: at different times, at very different times. depending who i'm hangin' out w/. some of my friends are like taking two year-old pills, others stupid pills, and yet others smart pills

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: mine depends on the mood i am in!

2006-02-10 [RainCloud]: if i'm alone, then i act intelligiently

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: intelligence depends on the ages of the people are ound me!

2006-02-10 [GABA~blah~GABA]: hmm.. interesting... im hungry

2006-02-10 [RainCloud]: generally, what age?

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: um...the lower the age the lower my ineligence, for i like to be able to talk to all. if they are older, then i have a higher inelegence!

2006-02-10 [death how i long to embrace you]: ahhh really now take a stab at my age my friend

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: hhhmm.....from the content of your house, i would say any where between 17 and 26

2006-02-10 [death how i long to embrace you]: lol now that is not to fair you have to be more specific

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: hhhmmm...in your twenties, i would say b/c of the maturity that get from ya

2006-02-10 [death how i long to embrace you]: *hugs and smiles* sorry to say my friend but im only 16

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: *giggles* i give you credit them hun!! you dont act it!

2006-02-10 [death how i long to embrace you]: yes so i am told so i am told think i was forced to grow faster then my years but it is all good didnt really have to go though the hells of teens

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: *smiles* thats good!

2006-02-10 [death how i long to embrace you]: well in a way i guess it is so yea i guess

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: it is good!

2006-02-10 [death how i long to embrace you]: *nods* yes yes........

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: *smiles contently*

2006-02-10 [death how i long to embrace you]: what to do what to do

2006-02-10 [Raikcoes]: eat cookies and drink milk

2006-02-11 [GABA~blah~GABA]: GLADELY, IF ITS OREOS

2006-02-11 [Raikcoes]: there are many cookies here. just looks at the table i set up *uncovers a table behind and revealing all sorts of cookes and milk* there are different kinds of milk as well! lol

2006-02-11 [death how i long to embrace you]: ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm yummmy

2006-02-12 [GABA~blah~GABA]: .......mmmmmmmmmmm kookies

2006-02-13 [Raikcoes]: *smiles to myself*

2006-02-14 [RainCloud]: OREOS!!!

2006-02-16 [Raikcoes]: *smiles* lots!

2006-02-16 [GABA~blah~GABA]: ok i feel sick

2006-02-16 [Raikcoes]: why is that?

2006-02-19 [GABA~blah~GABA]: i cant rember

2006-02-20 [Raikcoes]: thats cool

2006-02-20 [GABA~blah~GABA]: hmm

2006-02-20 [Raikcoes]: hows you?

2006-02-21 [GABA~blah~GABA]: mmmm funny... lookin. lol i crack myself up

2006-02-21 [death how i long to embrace you]: weeeeeeeeeeeee we crack me up

2006-02-21 [Raikcoes]: *smiles*

2006-02-22 [GABA~blah~GABA]: lmfao

2006-02-22 [Raikcoes]: *pounces music* hhow are ya?

2006-02-23 [GABA~blah~GABA]: good u

2006-02-23 [death how i long to embrace you]: .....damn i broke a promise....ohhh well

2006-02-23 [GABA~blah~GABA]: what promise?

2006-02-25 [Raikcoes]: wahts up hun?

2006-02-25 [death how i long to embrace you]: a promise i made to a friend to not do something ever agian

2006-02-25 [Raikcoes]: what did you do hun?

2006-02-26 [death how i long to embrace you]: i brought out something i had to hide something sharp

2006-02-26 [Raikcoes]: hunny, you shouldnt do that!

2006-02-26 [death how i long to embrace you]: i know i shouldnt but i did and i know that i broke a promise

2006-02-26 [Raikcoes]: *hugs tight* its okay hun.....we all do at some point!

2006-02-26 [death how i long to embrace you]: yea but i try so hard not to break my promises

2006-02-26 [Raikcoes]: so do i, i have only broken *thinks* 3 out of the millions that i made, and i didnt mean to, it just kinda happened!

2006-02-26 [death how i long to embrace you]: i know i understand but i should have been able to not break this one

2006-02-26 [Raikcoes]: temptation is hard, yet fate is the one who deals the card

2006-02-26 [death how i long to embrace you]: yes but what is fate truely?

2006-02-26 [Raikcoes]: fate is what guides us. more or less the life bus

2006-02-27 [tears of blood]: true

2006-02-28 [death how i long to embrace you]: yup

2006-02-28 [GABA~blah~GABA]: ok so what are we talkung about again

2006-02-28 [death how i long to embrace you]: phylosiphal stuff or how ever you spell

2006-02-28 [Raikcoes]: lol sounds fun...yet to see a thing uncoloured by ones own preferences and desires is to see a thing in its own pristine simplicity

2006-02-28 [death how i long to embrace you]: yup

2006-02-28 [Raikcoes]: *smiles* i love that one

2006-02-28 [GABA~blah~GABA]: found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing... today i fell it felt better just knowing this matters i just feel stronger, AND SHARPER found a box of sharp objects

2006-02-28 [death how i long to embrace you]: ummm what

2006-02-28 [GABA~blah~GABA]: its a song

2006-02-28 [death how i long to embrace you]: ohhhh ok

2006-02-28 [Raikcoes]: *smiles* cool

2006-02-28 [GABA~blah~GABA]: best song in the rickin world

2006-02-28 [death how i long to embrace you]: yup

2006-03-01 [Raikcoes]: *nods*

2006-04-13 [Raikcoes]: ne ways. meanwhile back on the ranch while the deer and the antelope play

2006-04-14 [death how i long to embrace you]: WOOt

2006-04-14 [Raikcoes]: lmao

2006-04-14 [death how i long to embrace you]: so whats up all

2006-04-14 [Raikcoes]: nothing much here, just got done drinkin myself sober -nods-

2006-04-14 [death how i long to embrace you]: ummm that makes no sense but it all good just like fucking for virginity

2006-04-17 [Raikcoes]: -giggles- it makes total sense. you drink till your drunk and then if ya keep drinkin you can drink yourself sober

2006-04-17 [death how i long to embrace you]: ok

2006-04-17 [Raikcoes]: i guess you have to be a drinker to u nderstand lmao -pounces-

2006-04-18 [death how i long to embrace you]: that i am but yes

2006-04-18 [Raikcoes]: lol

2006-04-19 [death how i long to embrace you]: im not to sure any more

2006-04-19 [Raikcoes]: really? bout what?

2006-04-19 [death how i long to embrace you]: about it all

2006-04-20 [Raikcoes]: =giggles- i have that effect on some

2006-04-20 [death how i long to embrace you]: *glomps*

2006-04-22 [Raikcoes]: -ish glomped-

2006-04-22 [death how i long to embrace you]: so whats new

2006-04-23 [Raikcoes]: animation

2007-02-07 [sammy01988]: oh ya kool

2007-06-30 [Raikcoes]: yip

2008-03-24 [Raikcoes]: okiday seems like every one need to lets say, how to put it nicely here...uuuummmmmm not happening here [WAKE UP!!!!!]